I'm so glad you're doing better, and I hope you continue to do so!! Depression is just a horrible, horrible thing, and one of the worst things about it is just exactly what you were talking about: how terribly much it isolates a person and just make it seem like it makes "sense" for them to not be here any more. Even if you know, logically, that others have dealt with similar things, or that people really do care about you and want you here, the logic can't outweigh, at the time, how deeply alone a person feels, right along with that "they'd truly be better off without me" aspect. I'm so thankful you got past that, and I hope it never gets that bad again!! <3