30 Days Of Music - Day 18 + WC related question

[s2309]

So, um, I failed at posting yesterday. But! I wrote about 2500 words that are a part of a longer story that will hopefully see the light of journal soon. So, forgiven?

Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio

There are boatloads of songs that I wish were played more on the radio, but I'll just stick to the two I'm switching between today.

one

New Day by Kate Havnevik. I like the intro well enough, but I only really fall in love with this song at about 1:44. It's lovely.

Beautiful day
Watching you as you awake
Morning stars in your eyes
Your hand in mine

The sky is lit up
Day will be richer than night
So don't think of yesterday
It's here and now

It's a, it's a, it's a...new day
It's a, it's a, it's a...new day

The beauty of you
Gives me my fortitude
Stronger than any dark cloud
Screaming out loud, hey, hey

The sky is lit up
Day will be richer than night
So don't think of yesterday
It's here and now

It's a, it's a, it's a...new day
It's a, it's a, it's a...new day

It's a, it's a, it's a...new day
It's a, it's a, it's a...new day


two

Cello Song by The Books featuring Jose Gonzalez. I'd been hunting for this song two days ago and making no headway till I remembered that it had been in the background of The Blacklist. It's beautiful.

Strange face, with your eyes
So pale and sincere
Underneath, you know well
You have nothing to fear

For the dreams that came to you
When you were young
Told of a life where
Spring has sprung

You would seem so frail
In the cold of the night
When the armies of emotion
Go out to fight

But while the earth
Sinks to its grave
You sail to the sky
On the crest of a wave

So forget this cruel world
Where I belong
I'll just sit and wait
And sing my song

And if one day
You should see me in the crowd
Lend a hand and lift me
To your place into the cloud


Question - What do you think Neal's afraid of? This is for the story I referenced above - I want to scare the shit out of him, but he doesn't scare easy. Generally, specifically, whatever. Thanks in advance!

Comments

[embroiderama]

The main thing I can think of that would scare Neal is losing one of the few people he truly cares about, perhaps thinking that Peter, El, Mozzie, June (or Sara?) had died. In my head-canon, the prospect of getting stuck in solitary confinement for an extended period of time also scares the crap out of him.

[sapphire2309]

Oooh, that could work brilliantly. Neal's having drug induced hallucinations, so it probably won't be people dying so much as leaving, but it could still work.

I could possibly work solitary confinement in too. But you hit the jackpot with the Neal losing people part. THank you!!!

[treonb.livejournal.com]

If you go by what the show people say - I once saw an interview with Jeff Eastin I think, who said that he'd be afraid of being without money and going back to jail (and something else I forget).

[sapphire2309]

Ooh, that's interesting. I looked it up, it was a tweet. I can't find the tweet he mentioned that in, but I did find an analysis of it on whitecollarfixation.

I'm not sure I'll be able to work it into the story, but it's definitely going to be useful in the future! Thanks!! :D

[treonb.livejournal.com]

Wow, thanks for finding that! I probably did see it on whitecollarfixation. And now I see why I couldn't remember #3 - boredom didn't compute for me.

[sapphire2309]

No problem :D

And yeah, boredom and incarceration make the list for similar reasons.

[turtlebaby-02.livejournal.com]

Exposure, I think. Being genuinely known by someone. He's a con man extraordinaire, his whole life is is based on how someone perceives him. And a lot of those are little (and big) lies and half truths.

Idk. Maybe I'm projecting myself into Neal again. lol But the idea of people getting to my mushy bits scares the crap out of me.

I don't like feeling vulnerable, and letting people know me feels like a giant target on my back that just says "Please, hurt me."

Or ants. Not like, one ant. But a whole swarm. *shudder*

Possibly clowns. THERE'S SO MUCH RAGE BEHIND THAT MAKEUP. D:

And now I am projecting. :D

[sapphire2309]

Oh, yes, definitely. XD

Prooobably not clowns. For all you know, Neal's infiltrated a circus in the guise of a clown.

Ants could work too. He's hallucinating atm, maybe ants can join the angst parade. I don't think he'll be afraid of them so much as just wanting them to get away from him. But yeah. yay!

Ooh, exposure's a really good one. It definitely works for Neal, considering how often he hides behind a slick facade.

Thank you so much!!! :DD

[turtlebaby-02.livejournal.com]

I am pretty certain that I hate clowns for the very simple reason that you can't see the person behind them. Like, idek, they're so falsely happy that it makes me uncomfortable. They could be plotting your murder or be mourning and you just don't KNOW.

I have a strange suspicion that if Neal Caffrey walked in the door right now, he'd evoke that same sensation of uncomfortableness. (Rambling, btw, feel free to ignore.) because of that same genuine falseness (oxymorons that make no sense to anyone but me, ftw?)

Neal AS a clown makes me want to cry a little. I would be genuinely terrified.

M'kay. Work to do. Oddly shaped plot to knead. :)

[sapphire2309]

Okay, when you put it like that, things start to get freaky. I might just be able to use that! Thank you :DD

No, that actually does make sense. As a writer, Neal's facade is fascinating and shiny and oh-so-fun to break down; as a person, being confronted with that facade, knowing that the facade is there, is freaky as hell.

I'm a little different though. When people like Neal Caffrey (with nothing close to his particular talents and charms, but generally, schmoozers) confront me, I blink and walk away. Like, maybe this is just me, but I'd be like - people in general are shitty, so who do you think you are, being *nice*?

Oh noes! *hugs you*

Plot fixing for the win!